As much as I wanted to stay on topic (St.Patricks day activities), it just wasn't meant to be.
Do you ever feel like life is just a big carnival ride, and you just wish it would stop long enough for you to get off?
And then throw in those wonderful female hormones- well, it makes for a crazy state of mind!
We took a family vacation last week- I know you'd think I'd be rested and rearing to go! Instead, I seem to be off-kilter ever since, atleast mentally. I've had terrible insomnia (you may have seen my 3am comments) and my memory is atrocious. I have no idea where my bank debit card is, it's been missing ever since the last time I went out (and I don't rightly remember when that was). I'm just foggy brained.
And then there is school. Our rainy weather has arrived and seems to have settled in. That dreary, continual rain. For one reason or another, we have not done co-op homeschool for about 3 weeks. The boys are having trouble focusing. And they both could listen to me read just about anything for long periods of time, but getting them to write anything beyond answers to basic questians is akin to pulling teeth. Please tell me it's because they're boys!
We're having a Missions Conference at our Church this week, which means a total of 5 services in 5 days. One of the main missionaries is a man who has lived 23 years in the Philipines, in a city even the Philipino people themselves are afraid to live in! 3 men have sworn to kill him.
The first time I heard him speak was 15 years ago at College, and I have admired him ever since. He's just an old country boy from West Virginia, but when he starts to preach, it's powerful. I enjoyed the first night so much, so why didn't I make it to the second night?
Well, seems like I was double-booked to be at a speech therapy appointment at about the same time- it slipped hubby's mind. Which is no wonder, since he is working lots of overtime, and taking a college class. So I had about 25 minutes warning to feed and clothe my 3 and an extra friend. I did get the kids there ( late) for their missions meeting, but took my bedraggled self off to home. This was not a time I wanted to walk into service halfway through the proceedings.
And I'm going to quess that at the root of my whole problem is the fact that at a certain time of the month, my body gets so screwed up by my hormones that I almost cannot think straight.
Which is why I have such difficult pregnancies (soaring hormones) and why I don't use anything that may try to adjust things in any way.
In a few days, I'll look at this post and say "What was I thinking?" And maybe hit delete.
As for tommorrow (which is now today) I've decided to present my kids with appointment cards directing them to come to mommy's room at a set time to spend some individual one-on-one together.
Some things are just more important than others.