Friday, March 14, 2008

Time to slow down

As much as I wanted to stay on topic (St.Patricks day activities), it just wasn't meant to be.

Do you ever feel like life is just a big carnival ride, and you just wish it would stop long enough for you to get off?

And then throw in those wonderful female hormones- well, it makes for a crazy state of mind!

We took a family vacation last week- I know you'd think I'd be rested and rearing to go! Instead, I seem to be off-kilter ever since, atleast mentally. I've had terrible insomnia (you may have seen my 3am comments) and my memory is atrocious. I have no idea where my bank debit card is, it's been missing ever since the last time I went out (and I don't rightly remember when that was). I'm just foggy brained.

And then there is school. Our rainy weather has arrived and seems to have settled in. That dreary, continual rain. For one reason or another, we have not done co-op homeschool for about 3 weeks. The boys are having trouble focusing. And they both could listen to me read just about anything for long periods of time, but getting them to write anything beyond answers to basic questians is akin to pulling teeth. Please tell me it's because they're boys!

We're having a Missions Conference at our Church this week, which means a total of 5 services in 5 days. One of the main missionaries is a man who has lived 23 years in the Philipines, in a city even the Philipino people themselves are afraid to live in! 3 men have sworn to kill him.

The first time I heard him speak was 15 years ago at College, and I have admired him ever since. He's just an old country boy from West Virginia, but when he starts to preach, it's powerful. I enjoyed the first night so much, so why didn't I make it to the second night?

Well, seems like I was double-booked to be at a speech therapy appointment at about the same time- it slipped hubby's mind. Which is no wonder, since he is working lots of overtime, and taking a college class. So I had about 25 minutes warning to feed and clothe my 3 and an extra friend. I did get the kids there ( late) for their missions meeting, but took my bedraggled self off to home. This was not a time I wanted to walk into service halfway through the proceedings.

And I'm going to quess that at the root of my whole problem is the fact that at a certain time of the month, my body gets so screwed up by my hormones that I almost cannot think straight.
Which is why I have such difficult pregnancies (soaring hormones) and why I don't use anything that may try to adjust things in any way.

In a few days, I'll look at this post and say "What was I thinking?" And maybe hit delete.

As for tommorrow (which is now today) I've decided to present my kids with appointment cards directing them to come to mommy's room at a set time to spend some individual one-on-one together.

Some things are just more important than others.


kerri @ gladoil said...

The rain has been rather..gray..and cold...

It's because they're boys.

Hope you feel better soon.

Mrs. Darling said...

Hope things get better for ya!

Nikki said...

Please don't delete this post; it let's us know that the people we meet on the internet as just as imperfect as we are. Thank you for being so transparent and vulnerable.

Marva said...

Thank you for keeping it real for all of us stircrazy mama's that get a little glimpse into our internet buddies' worlds. Please don't delete......just think of how many of my post I would need to delete too! ;)


Nikki said...

I just "tagged" you. Come over to see what that means.

mykidsmom said...

Kerri: It is some comfort to know my boys aren't the only ones that are this way...and I don't think I will ever get used to Oregon's chilly rainy season.

Mrs.D: Thanks for the email; have a great trip! Can't wait to hear about the house, Lol.

Nikki & Marva: It's a funny thing, I don't mind at all when others share their low times on their blog, but it's very hard for me to do the same. Thanks for your sweet comments and encouragement:)

Minimalist Mommy said...

I love these type of posts. Makes us connect to other mom's and we realize we are not alone. We have had the longest winter in years and I am starting to feel it in my moods. I wish I could blame it on the time of the month but unfortunately that's not it.